» take take take it all but you never give @ Thursday, January 27
i guess the holidays really made me superrrrrr lazy~ and recently im always late for meetups. lol. not always. most of the time? =/ lol~
so. received my posting results ytd and.. im so disappointed. lol. got into np's early childhood. im fine with the course actually. but why am i so fucked up? its because i didnt get into business (i knew it) and sci (i met the cop & req for perfumery, but not applied chem) wtf. fuck the jae'11. couldnt get into what i wanted, not even sci? -sigh- i know its pointless to complain all day long but after all its gonna be 3 years in that course and it kinda determines our future. i know we can get into university and get a degree for smth else but how? we need a good GPA probably 3.8 how can i do it.... :( so stressful. b4 o lvls its worrying abt the difficulty level. aft o lvls i worry abt my results. aft my results i worry abt the posting. aft posting results i worry abt my appeal. i really really want and hope i can get into chemical and biomolecular engineering at np.
i feel like.. like.. idk what i feel like. totally moodless -_- !@#$%^&*() my dad sounded as if he was screaming over the phone when i told him i got into early childhood -.- maybe i've got higher expectations of myself or whatever but thats just what i got in, what i like (not the most, tho). dad wants me either in business or sci. and im trying. lucks for my appeal. =/.
argh i swear i can freaking complain again as long as im not asleep but i think everyone would throw bricks at me and hope i'll stfu. so i'll stfu first. bye.
