CHERYLCHERRYBAOZHU.

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2011-02-08T11:27:00.002+08:00

HI!!!!! you know what. actually im kinda thinking if i should migrate to livejournal instead of staying put on blogger. LOL nobody reads it actually but i think i'd like a new environment, hmm. shall consider! =/

on the 2nd it was jieyi's 17th birthday! :) hahaa we didnt celebrate tho as it's chu xi! =/ haha, nevertheless i hope she had enjoyed herself that day! :D haha.

so today's the 8th and the appeal results will be out at 2pm later on~ ._. i dont know the success rates but all i can do now is hope and pray i'd get into any one of them esp my first one. lol.

its the cny period nao. i know its a little today late since chu yi - san is like alr over haha but! im still gonna go bai nian at people's house!! like for example ytd's at vin's, today at jm's, fri's at giselle and maybe one of these day's jolene's! not forgetting tuition teacher's! hahah =p

suddenly hope that thirst no.4 would fly to sg now! cant wait for it. blame myself for reading thirst no2&3 so fast in dec. regret la! T_T haha~

alright. shall stop now. idk hw to continue.

take take take it all but you never give

2011-01-27T17:19:00.005+08:00

i guess the holidays really made me superrrrrr lazy~ and recently im always late for meetups. lol. not always. most of the time? =/ lol~

so. received my posting results ytd and.. im so disappointed. lol. got into np's early childhood. im fine with the course actually. but why am i so fucked up? its because i didnt get into business (i knew it) and sci (i met the cop & req for perfumery, but not applied chem) wtf. fuck the jae'11. couldnt get into what i wanted, not even sci? -sigh- i know its pointless to complain all day long but after all its gonna be 3 years in that course and it kinda determines our future. i know we can get into university and get a degree for smth else but how? we need a good GPA probably 3.8 how can i do it.... :( so stressful. b4 o lvls its worrying abt the difficulty level. aft o lvls i worry abt my results. aft my results i worry abt the posting. aft posting results i worry abt my appeal. i really really want and hope i can get into chemical and biomolecular engineering at np.

i feel like.. like.. idk what i feel like. totally moodless -_- !@#$%^&*() my dad sounded as if he was screaming over the phone when i told him i got into early childhood -.- maybe i've got higher expectations of myself or whatever but thats just what i got in, what i like (not the most, tho). dad wants me either in business or sci. and im trying. lucks for my appeal. =/.

argh i swear i can freaking complain again as long as im not asleep but i think everyone would throw bricks at me and hope i'll stfu. so i'll stfu first. bye.

like an empty box.

2011-01-22T02:06:00.003+08:00

i dont think anybody reads this blog, right? hahaha~dont expect anyone to anyway, lol. :s im actually quite worried about our posting results. it kind determines what we're gonna be in future, imagine studying all these business/sci related stuffs. oh well~reality reality and more reality.

and so im quite tired but i dont wish to sleep now even though i look like some skinny panda with not-so-dark eyebags. hmm. contradicting much? hahaha. so i've been just thinking about how much girls would do for guys and likewise. like how much we actually say we'd do to hurt ourselves to ease the pain. like slitting ourselves haha. this feels so sec1-2.

kinda interesting to see what each guy brings you huh. from sitting up on your bed for hours thinking about what you've said to each other that day, the day before to holding your phone and hoping his name would magically appear on your phone in the form of a text message saying a simple 'hey asleep yet?' hahaa. :s so much but everything runs through your mind, so perfectly! haha.

omg i feel so emo! lol -.- i cant let this get into me DDDDDDD: still rmbr-ed a funnt scene when i just on-ed my computer. like..

me: -sian face-
*turns on windows music player*
song: I WANNA SEE YOUR PEACOCK!
me: -_-........

like the song doesnt really fit the atmopshere~ hmmm. this week feels so busy, but i like! it beats staying at home like, facing the tv and the com from 1pm-1am playing the same old game =_= i feel so fking lifeless. its time to set my body alarm at the 'sleep early, wake up early' mode. those stupid pimples have been appearing on my forehead recently and there's 2 more special ones on both my cheeks. CUTE OR WHAT HAHAHA wtfffff. -_____- and one more in between my eyebrows.

weilun: wah cheryl, whats that on your head? become indian alr ah?
me: -_-!
shah: i can still rmbr ur racial harmony day costume ah u put that indian thingy blahblah
me: -_-!!!!!!!!

lol. ok i knw my whole post feels so emo and sian and long and stupid but if you managed to read till the end of this post.. then i've got nth to say except applaud. *clap hands*

AND ITS NOT THE END OF THE POST YET MAN. i still got much more rubbish to say! :/ afterall im quite a rubbish person. hehe, the only happy thing i can think of now is the horoscope thingy my friend showed me. checked sagittarius horoscope with _'s and HAH it match ok! so-so, but there aren't any 'reject' signs hehe! lol -.- shitt get over it cheryl hahaha.

ok baiii shall post another day when i got the hweeling bai bai!

hi bye friends.

2011-01-17T19:36:00.002+08:00

good old times, good old times. 6 long years have passed and some random p5 photos suddenly surfaced on facebook!!! woah, lol. i havent changed a single bit, have i? except that i've grown taller and my fringe is now partially covering 1/4 of my face. HAHA woah. did i mention before that i miss anyone who used to irritated me, be it pri or sec sch? EXCEPT ALAN YAP. LOL. :/

cant believe i actually whiled away 7 fucking hours of a mundane monday. :s everyone in school is "OMG ITS O LVLS THIS YEAR" "OMG THIS YEAR STREAMING" "IM NEW IN THE SCH..." :s i have got 3 more months to go. april 18 is the official 1st day of sch right? in poly. :/ arghhh why why why~ im kinda afraid to meet new friends! HAHA lol -> this isn't coming out of my mouth, is it? lolol.~ well but jan 26 comes first. posting results. ahhh ngee ann ngee ann ngee ann T_T kk~ shall stop here today. BYE.

Fuckin Perfect

2011-01-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

ohhai. im bored. no kidding. so i submitted my jae application ytd. no actually it was on thursday haha. kinda impossible but i hope i'd enter my first choice. >.> and that after that all of us will be separated. into all sorts of schools and courses. life without them is.. weird. no more sitting down around the same table having lunch. no more going home tgt. we've finally moved on to another phase of life. whether or not we'll still be the same 7 of us in future, i dont know. but i sure do hope even if we're not that close, we'll still be in contact. :)

much said 'bout that. i am rotting at home a little more everyday. i dont want sch to start. really. its gonna feel so weird having to meet new friends :/ then maybe new cliques and stuffs. i dont know.. haha. alright tata. much said.

;why did you even appear at such a timing. i've just finished healing the same wound you once opened. hahaha.

Confirmation

2011-01-06T01:18:00.003+08:00

and so after stalking Twitter/FB/SEAB/MOE/Yahoo!, the media has finally finalised that we'll be going down to school to receive our results next Monday after 2pm. >.< before the news even aired, i was alr very scared lol but with this confirmation, i feel even more scared -_- yeah i know i keep saying stuffs like 'its gonna come sooner or later' but I.. I can totally imagine the tensed atmosphere and all the murmurings when the top scholars and the individual subjects are being flashed on the screen. !@#$%^&*()_ it's time to do some mental preparation. :/ hoping for the best, but expecting the worst .__. alright. shall off the com now because im gonna do some stuffs for my friends! h3h3h3. :) meeting them later~ visiting open house ^^ h3h3.

PS: when the fuck is your name ever gonna appear on my phone!? :/

Heart vacancy

2011-01-04T22:24:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

by updating this blog you can see im really very bored.
too bored to be true! supposed to be asleep now but.. i dont feel tired. /:
i doubt anyone visits this blog anymore.. but i'll still continue talking!!!

its 2011 already~ and i'm receiving my results like, next mon-wed?!
time flies doesnt it? just 4 years ago i came inside jwss and started whining
like 'why am i in sec sch!?' & 'idw be friends with them they look scary'
but 4 years later i cant bear to part with all my friends.
the faces will soon disappear, that's if we're not in the same sch and course anymore.
the period of waiting to collect the results is very.. mind torturing.
getting all worried about how well we'll fare. yeah, my relatives told me
'you should have a rough idea of how you fare what' yeah.
i dont know, all i know is im too tired of waiting, want to get over and done with it asap.
but im scared, too. who isnt. haha.

anyway..~ 2011. haha. of course i have new year resolutions but.
i guess i always screw them up LOL because i dont follow my resolutions.
human nature + we dont always expect and predict the future ourselves.

LOL OK i know what i wrote is a load of rubbish @_@
but.. im just bored. i'm gonna miss everyone, haha.
i wonder what God/life has in store for me.
I'll pray, and God will do the rest! :)

2010-12-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

LOL HI.

1month plus since i last blogged -.-"
im too bored at home..
work for 2 days a week and, theres no work next week. -_-
arghhh ~_~

BACK. hopefully.

2010-11-12T09:25:00.002+08:00

so today's the last day of examinations, which means... IM FREE.
haha, however i cant really stop worrying for my results,
for the fact that i screwed many things up..
i hope to pass all my subjects.. HUMANITIES, SCIENCE AND ENGLISH, PLEASE.
:/ :( -sigh continuously- oh yea, this sounds rather impossible but,
i wanna get a b4 for my art. too high a expectation? no?
idk, hard work pays off right..? :/

HHAHA. so this holidays shall be:
play, work, watch shows, maple if its freaking working again.
<3

goodbye! last paper, and hopefully meet that stupid girllllzxc later~

2010-08-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

HI :) long time no see uh, blog.
Anyway I came here today just to tell the whole world this:

I am going to MIA! LOL

See you after O levels :)

2010-08-07T23:28:00.003+08:00

Hi. I'm feeling so tired now.
But theres tons of work waiting for me.
I don't feel stress, I just feel..
That I have ample of time and don't
Know how to use it,
Which contradicts everything.
Because I have so much to do in reality.
But I'm still lazing around.
Someone just pinch me and wake me up,
Lol. -_-
I feel rather stupid just now because
I was searching high and low for my
Geog textbook and art sketches.
I found my tb hidden between some books -.-
And my sketches...? I clipped it onto
My boards.
I feel like a dumbass.
Ok I got to go now. I need urgent sleep.
Goodnight.

2010-07-31T13:01:00.002+08:00

Hi. So long since I posted~
Was kinds busy last and this week o.o
Rushing my art like mad.. ><
and it's still not done. Maybe by next week
I'm gonna finish it, hopefully.
My boards are still incompete.
2 more including my evaluation
But hakim says he wanna rearrange my boards o.o..
Ahh sigh. Lol.

Friends? Really?
Its more like we're leading our own lives.
Sigh. Kk bye.

-.-'

2010-07-22T16:45:00.002+08:00

HI.
I am so badly worn out I can continue sleeping for
Another day! -_-"
I think I screwed up my math FT today.
Just hope everything goes on well ahha.

End of chinese papers. Finally. I hope I did well!
Results out soon!

Anyway i think I won't update much
Because its gonna be very hectic and busy
Until the end of O's. Haha!

Kk bye

nobody's perfect

2010-07-17T16:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY JOANLAI! :)

ytd's joan's bday. went to swensens for lunch and rushed
back to school just to take a cert -.-" helloads of trouble!
hah~
it's getting closer to submission of the mounting boards & YET
i dont have a draft of my final piece! :@ hakim says he's not
allowing us to get our canvases until we're done with our mounting board.
in the mean time i neeeeeeed to do do math papers!!!!!
hehe!

orly? have you ever thought what you're like in my eyes?
FAIL. have you ever thought you aren't any better?
WELL i did.

LIKE CRAP ONLY

2010-07-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

OH, im 10 days late into posting!
alright. nothing happened recently, i think.
im in the state of PMS already la. ZAH LOL
because i keep having moodswings and worse tempers.
=_= it sucks, really. oh but who cares -.-

fucked up tired now. my eyes are closing, gravity's pulling it down.\
I NEED TO SLEEP AND THE WEEKEND IS MY ONLY TIME TO
DO SO BUT I GOT A FUCKING HUGE STACK OF WORK
PILED UP ON MY DESK AND YET IM USING THE COMPUTER
OH GOD SAVE ME PLEASE I NEEDA GET AWAYYYY

ok so, i really need to work hard. for just 4 months. 4 months only
and i can play all i want.
hope i succeeded in my dpa application cos omfg i really wanna get
in like duh if not why did i apply? -.-"n lol-ed.

anw. been thinking about it the last few days.
well its kinda true that caring for a person might not make
that person care back for you haha.
and really, how could you say that to my face.
LIKE SO DIRECT. eyah i appeared not taking it seriously
but you dont know how much that comment hurts.

it came rushing back

2010-07-05T01:59:00.002+08:00

SUP! haha~ whatta sunday~! hungry ttm now. D:
can someone deliver macs/kfc anything for me to eat now?
and yes, i know im a pig because i had a heavy dinner.
then mcchicken burger & coke for supper AND im very hungry now.
SERIOUS LOL =.= i wonder whats wrong with me man.

haha~! i ought to enjoy this youth day holiday because
after this holiday it means endless studying till after o lvls.
chi oral.. chi lc... prelims.. o lvl. :/ sigh! all the best people!
oh yeah,happy 16th birthday to july babies! ^^V
may you do well in your national exams! ^^

damn. anyhowly did my geog. left eng~! /: sigh!
im going to bed right now. tired + super hungry la! haha nightszx!

even if you were broke,
my love wont cost a thing.

was it another mistake?

2010-07-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

finally turned on my comp. actually it was ytd haha.
sudden headache. quite busy at school this week.
with art and all those exams. gotta start studying soon.
no more procrastination cherry! haha!
recently in class suriya kept calling me sherry. something liddat.
for a moment i thought he called me cherry lols.

did a room-spring-cleaning today. looks more spacious and less messy.
but its still quite messy. LOL
feel like watching the 230 match but~ kinda having a headache. should i?
hmm. shall consider. /:

my heart's feeling heavy. my tears are being forced down by gravity.
my eyes, tired. my smile, fading.
it's all in the past, though...

mixed feelings

2010-06-25T21:47:00.001+08:00

HI. sorry for the lack of updates! x_x was busy with art this whole week ._."
had art camp from ytd till today and it's fun! ^^V
hehe, painted from morning till around 1am at night :p quite fun!
because art room was still noisy -_-. lols! xD.
howevr slept at 4+ cos cldnt sleep + very noisy.
rained fucking heavily this morning with loud thunderstorms =_=
scary uh! painted awhile, went home at 12 and slept HEHE

gna chiong my homeworks tomorrow liao BYE

fuckedup

2010-06-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

art today! managed to paint 4 hands but not completed yet kns ==
still got 4 more arms, 1 background, 1 belt, 1eye, 1finger+contact lens
and one portion to insert things which idk what to do with it!
ARGH HELP ME i needa finish by end of this week la asshole :'(
grrrr. anw. i had some moodswings early in the morning.
ruined a great day kanasai. =.= esdbfoghroegr
art camp! hope i'll finish everything. X_______X

sometimes, i sld really learn to let go of everything
and stop myself from thinking so much cuz it's bringing my nowhere.
it all seems so difficult to put things back in place,
i wonder how much it'll take to have everything like before once again.
sigh. x1000.
perhaps time's the best medicine.
but im impatient and i dunwanna wait...

i fall asleep thinking of you,
and smile even in my dreams.
HAHA.

i see you fading away

2010-06-20T12:54:00.002+08:00

Overnight + Marina Barrage

haha hi! happy fathers' day! :)
lol. met ssp selle and joan on fri to get stuffs & went to ssp's hse.
overnighted thr, do mask had fun. slept quite early tho!
woke up at 730 on saturday morning and went to 9head to have breakfast.
went to ntuc extra to get some sushi ingredients.
prepared the rice, bathed waited for the rest to come.
cabbed over to marina barrage. man it was effing hot thr.
ate foods, went to the gallery to enjoy aircon (Y)
aha. was lucky enough to catch ndp rehearsal.
actually only airplanes flying past but i like :)
saw fireworks too haha! :P
went to jp aft that walkwalk with xt, then went home. :D

dont leave me hanging.

2010-06-18T13:03:00.002+08:00

HAHA paiseh changed my blogskin :P
was like, editing halfway and it was like 'Bad request.' wtf? :O
and then, aft that i tried editing again and all the dfghjkl words came out.
like seriously the whole page was covered with asdfgudhofieoierbhogv words
omfg. =.= decided to change blogskin then. anw this one's good :D
leave your comments aft every post *winks*
it's like the 'remedy' to the my-cbox-cannot-popup-question.
HAHA! :D lol-ed, hehe :D

hope ltr at night it's gna be enjoyable, same for tomorrow :)
miss my friends. HAHA :D

ohyeah, something for you guys. esp... some people :)
"I respect your honesty. But the content of what you say makes me hate you. So there’s a layer of respect, but, under that, hate."

don't call me a bitch for posting that,
call someone else a bitch for being one.
PS you know what i mean ;)

LOL. kinda bored here, like seriously.
art intensive next week. pray that i complete everything
& enjoy your remaining holidays,
(for those whos not returning to sch!)

leaf litter community

2010-06-17T13:13:00.003+08:00

OMG i so so so like this pic. looks disfigured huh! :D

omg i feel so proud of myself, i've been staying home for the, what,
4th consecutive day?! no money spent (Y) fwahah!
-.- NOT. bored to tears, rotting :'( practically doing nothing. argh!
except for, read abit of geog, did some math and english. DONE.
argh! im sucha badass lazybum >:( gotte do art like, seriously ahhh! T.T
next week, last week of intensive art + camp! so looking forward :D
haha! oh, i just rmbred some holiday assignments i needa complete

art (obviously + i havent started at all!)
chem tys (ALOT many chapters leh T_T)
a few sets of math worksheets (OMG)
sch reopen got chem test (T_T)

kk nothing more AHA.
picnic this saturday with clique (Y) hope all goes well yo! :)
lol~ seeya guys sooooon!

back.

2010-06-15T03:00:00.002+08:00

yeah. im back. lol. :x i know i keep switching blogs.
haha, gonna change my url, blogskin & maybe private it up soon!
:x lol. depends la. if have time. :)
anw. no more thick long hair. now its thinner.. but still long. not very tho.
haha! feel like cutting my fringe. got the urge to. -_-
but.. on second thought, nah! haha.
shall blog soon! watching the italy vs paraguay match now! :)

not talking to you is a torture

~

2010-05-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

yeah i know, messy stupid table i have @_@
time to study during the holidays! esp O lvl MT next monday!
hope i'll do well, hope everyone does well too! :D
will not update unless im free. takecare! ^^v

over

2010-05-26T22:29:00.002+08:00

NPCC life is over.

yeah. it really is over, can't portray how my life would be without npcc.
entered np 4 years ago, regretted, complained, hated going to cca.
everything went on fine. zihui left, alan and idk who joined in.
and that makes us where/what we are today. :)
these 4 years, seemingly long, unknowingly short. time flies, we've stepped down.
will miss gng to parades, getting pumpings, teaching juniors,
lunch tgt before cca, gng home tgt after cca.
i guess there's no more of this anymore. :/
hope everyone gets on fine in life~ esp when we're taking our major exam(s) this year.
goodluck guys, all the best! i hope this friendship never dies. :>

on the brighter note, YES IM FREE ON FRIDAYS HAHA.
they're suffering under the hot sun while i, prolly, enjoying myself in jp. :D
having lunch, walking around HEHE ^^V
can't picture their torment under the hot sun, LOL
esp when the weather is fuckin' hot nowadays -____-

tmrw receiving back results. oh well =.=
tcher talk. father talk. nehneh blahblah.
i need wake up! o lvl chi is next monday.
GOOD LUCK! :}

after so long and im still hoping.
what the fuck is this feelin', fuck it.

fuckin regretted.

2010-05-26T20:08:00.001+08:00

shall try tumblr for awhile. :)

day out!

2010-05-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

haha, look like a family. LOL

hello hello! ^^V super high now. gotta feeling to post~ so came here :D
went out today, town! ^^V orchard -> Marina Square -> Marina Barrage -> Jp -> Home.
:D met at 1245~ ^^v haha, me and xt sacrificed our seat to pei Jieyi lor!!!!
haha ;) went thr, walked arnd, jieyi was so damn happy she bought her blazer! :D
on the way home, when she's moaning abt getting scolded upon reaching home,
we told her, think of your blazer can le. and she really cheered up! :)

haha! lol. anw~ todya was fun! ^^V we blew bubbles at Marina Barrage! :)
funfun! long time since i did that, long time...
i wanna go thr for a picnic someday! :DD haha :) and fly kite! ^^V

didnt buy anything today~ :( not much caught my eye.
sianzzzzzzz! the weekend's ending. so boring D:

alright, gng off. NIGHTS! ^^V

we'll be a dream.

2010-05-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Seoul Garden 140510! :D

haha. it's 14th again. my fave number! :D hehe LOL.
haha, today's super fun! very very fun! ^^V, well but,
today's the day when teachers mark student's scripts. :/ haiz.
wonder how's my exams going... :(

ok! went to xt's hse at 10, then went to meet classmates @ control station.
haha, was abit late, sorry! :x trained to marina square's seoul garden ;D
they fucking made us wait so long. asshole. lol.
got in, my table consisted of jere, jo, afif & sp! ^^V we ate alot, talked alot!
:D funfun! ahhaa, i thin me and jere, jolene ate the most amt of meat!
^^ wanting to go thr again~! hhehee.
all till arnd 4, went off, took pics, and went to the bridge linking to the ir.
tried jumping on the platform, and it shook. LOL
omfg haha! :/ went back to jp, slacked, shopping and home. ^^

love today ttm! ^^ vehli fun. haha. hope in june thr's another outing again!
heheeeeeee. alright! nightnights!
good luck for everyone's results! BYE!

2010-05-13T14:01:00.000+08:00

EXAM IS OVER HAHAHAH!
happy happy happy! :D

oh. but there's still prelims. then o lvl.
argh! :(

HAHA OK.
just watched the last 2 episodes of E.U
niceeeeee :D
the 4th sequel's coming out like what, next year!?
wtf need wait so long -.-"
ok. ZZZ
seoul garden tomorrow.
hope it's gna be nice. and of cos fill my tummeh!
bye!

2010-05-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

世上只有妈妈好，有妈的孩子像块宝！

we were part of a beautiful dream.

2010-05-08T20:32:00.005+08:00

Do you remember the nights we,
Stayed up just laughing.
Smiling for hours,
at anything.

Remember the nights we,
drove around crazy.
In love

when the lights go out.
We'll be safe and sound.
We'll take control of the world,
likes its all we have
to hold onto
and we'll be
A dream.

Do you remember the nights we,
made our way dreaming
hoping of being being
someone big,
we were so young then,
we were to crazy,
in love

When the lights go out,
we'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
likes its all we have
to hold on to
we'll take control of the world
like its all we have, to hold on to.

When the lights out
(when the lights go out)
We'll be safe and sound.
(We'll be safe and sound)
Well take control of the world
Like its,
all we have to hold on to.
And we'll be
And we'll be.
And when the light go out.
(and when the light go out)
We'll be safe and sound,
we'll take control of the world.
Like its all we have to hold on to.

And we'll be,
a dream.

and i woke up from this beautiful dream,
feeling happy because those were the days,
the days where there was only us on earth.

yay.

2010-05-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO. :D

wahahaha. -.- yes i finally came to update after so freaking long.
in fact, it's been a week since i last blogged. LOL!~ well, due to MYE..

studying SS now, but came to relax and post awhile :P
had 2 exams this week, which was Eng and Chi. :/
haha. i think the storyline for my Eng compo was dumb. mr paul laughed
at it =.= lol. chi, idk hw much im gna get. zzz my paper 2.. hopeless. :'(
haiz. lol.

ytd, went out for dinner with squadmates, namely, juliene, desiree, lily, micky and
apple. :D LOL. ;x all the names except juliene's are fake, HAHA. slowly
figure out bah! :D hehe.
slacked awhile. met xt jy joan to studying @ the library today.
wasn't really fruitful cos not much went in -_- LOL.
anw. saw fab and adrian. didn't know tw was at lib too! ~
didnt manage to see him. =( haha.
anw. when we found a table at lvl 1.
me and an sat down. it's so fucking obvious that we need the table to study right.
brainless ppl. -_- when me and an sat down, 2 butts joined in.
2 freaking aunties. -.-" and when i told one of em that we needed the table,
one auntie diaoed me. asshole. -.-
:@ -'-

zz. went home aft that.
D: ss sucks. needa memorize 8 factors, 4 rishe and 4 fall. ZZZZ :@
;( chem, need jiayou manz.~

happy belated birthdays to april babies! ^^
and welcome may! ;0

indecisive, she can't decide.

2010-04-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

i still miss days in np, not. :X haha! my fridays are FINALLY freee! ^^
i think this week is supa rush lorhzx! ;( had to complete art by friday, but
always-procrastinating me haven't finish it, UP TILL NOW! :X alamak. -.-
hopeless siah me. BUT i did maths okay! myself somemore. with a bit of help only ;(
maths determines our future, our life. so,
someone wont be your life, but smth is YOUR LIFE. hahaha! what crap only sioh -.-'

oh. got back my maths FT and i fucking failed _l_ =.=
okay la, is expected de :X my vectors all X X X X X X -.- cross dao 0 marks. ZZZ
geog ft, i think sure fail lor. wrote rubbish answers. YET MYE IS COMING.
and wtf am i doing manz! ;( haven't start on MYE art yet, siah 1/2.
mye el/cl this coming wed&thurs, sian! ;'( but happy cuz no art. HAHA. :x

next week, whole week flooded with tuitions! damn busy and hectic.
lol. had one chem prac this week. i think also fail la. -.-
idk how to do sioh, and i still write the wrong ans even tho it's infront of me.
FML im so dumb + blind.
speaking of blind, my aunt arranged an eye checkup for my family and i this
coming may 8. wonder how's the results gna be like :O
but probably mine will still be (Y) , hope so la. :(

okok i think i talked to much. needa do art liaoz. :'(
its like 1230am now! and still so much to do, to memorise, to study.
i hate this sec4 life. :'(
oh yah. today was goodday! (saturday) (Y) hehe!
saw smth pleasing to my eyes! :X lol. shhhhhh, shy liao! :)
it's a promise, though. and i hope we'll still hold onto the promise.

PS: jessica, blogged about you liao la! :) stop drawing food(S)
in msn to make me feel hungrier! HAHHA :)

goodnight! :)

just gimme one more chance to make it right.

2010-04-22T20:13:00.003+08:00

POP 2010 with Sir Johann! & Mr Yeo :)

haha. sorry i took too long to post. lol. kinda busy these few days :/
esp when mye's round the corner and chinese o lvl next month. x.x

had POP on monday. was great. :) grats to the prize winners! ^^
after the parade was just mere fun and photo taking session(s) :)
sad yet happy day. no more friday trainings, :) no more speechday trainings (Y)
haha. no more teaching cadets! happy dao siaozzz :D
lol. kinda sad because i not spend my fridays with 'em anymore. :)

had geog ft today. seriously screwed up man. -.-
anh bombed the questions, i wonder how much i'll get for bombing ans. HAHA!
lol. needa do art lata, sian 1/2!!!! :(
havent worked out on my final layout yetz! :/
whutever, i think all that's important now is to start on canvas.
and im still lazy. :(

don't think i'll be updating much alr because of mye. needa concentrate on studies le.
altho i'll be hooked on fb, twitter, msn, etc...
kk. goodbye! :)

good luck fir midyear exams and happy birthday to those
birthday girls/boys born in the month of april! :) byeee~

i think i know.
you know too, right? :) and :'( and (U)

nobody would have guessed.

2010-04-18T11:31:00.004+08:00

Speech day 2010!

speechday was on friday, everything after sch was supposed to be rushed,
because we had to gather at 1230 (-.-) when we're released at 1210 but in the end,
we all gathered at 1pm. LOL. so anw, the parade on that day was good. :D
except for the fact that the stupid vip wasted 35 mins of our time waiting for him zz.
and in the end, we had our vip changed. =.=
aft parade, went back classroom & slacked, eat (Y) had fun, took pictures & went to change.
went to have dinner downstairs at the reception area or whatever it is, :)
aft that, arranged the tables and chairs back, & went home. :D
didn't celebrate cq's bday cos my dad went to fetch me and my bro. ^^

NPAP'10 yesterday! :)

had tuition in the afternoon, then aft tuition rushed home to bath change prepare
and went out to meet sj. we both went tgt as tw only had 2 tix, lol.~
reached thr quite early (-.-) but time flies and the parade started.
was kinda nervous (when im not the one involved) LOL.
the parade was good (Y) hehe. :D didn't manage to find samantha ;( but it's ok /:
lol. ;) then then then, dinner & went home. hahha.

today (18april2010); Happy 16th birthday shah! ;D seriously need to get started
on my homeworks and i hadn't let my lunch yet! =( argh!!

tomorrow's POP :) yay. 70% excited, 30% sad. :/ argh, mixed feelings!
haha. yay! ok. gonna buy lunch alr. byebye! :)

i should really slap myself.
ought to move on.

ilpomhwy,pritm. thanks.

2010-04-15T18:06:00.003+08:00

imtt,dy?

posted that photo because i missed my fringe :/ and was reminded of jasmine
saying to me that my fringe in the morning looks straighter? idk, forgot what she really said.
lol. anw. kinda bored now.
tomorrow's speech day, which marks the end of cca! ^^ finally no more rehearsals,
damn happy. speaking of rehearsals, had speechday rehearsal ytd and it was damn tiring la!
the sweat on my face is damn ticklish, and i was sniffing because i can't stand it anymore :(
LOL.
oh ya, i sent my phone for repair on monday and i received the sms notification that
i can collect it alr! damn damn damn happy la!!!!!
obtw, gotta fall in by 1pm tmrw for speechday. fuckmylife. -.-
rather stay back tday and move than come early tmrw and move wthhhh!

had ft today, and i think i screwed my bio totally, screwed my chem partially. ._.
arhg, just hope i'll pass for both! :)
geog test (i think) on development tmrw, hope i'll do well~ lazy to study! :/
& the weather is fucking warm this few days, singapore is not for humans to live! :(
kiddding lol. but it's raining now so i won't complain much! HEHEHEHEHEHHE :D

alright. time for dinner! excited for tomorrow's speechday (abit),
super excited for saturday's NPAP! :DDDD hope teckwen will march chio-ly :D
and monday! FINALLY DECLARE NO MORE NPCC HAHAHA LOL.
ok bye, dinner's waiting! (Y)

you're not worth the pain anymore.

2010-04-09T21:07:00.004+08:00

Cross country album in FB

a very busy week this week. /: speechday rehearsals, np, ft. @.@
ytd's thurs which means it's the last parade for us excluding speechday & POP.
gna miss them truck loads :< quite disappointed because the parade didn't
seem like it's for us at all. because we didn't even get an individual squad video
& they showed us campcract vid. -.- and took individual squad photos. -_-"
however i still enjoyed the times & pictures. :)
think i annoyed someone yesterday, because, i think you thought, who confirm?
haha. you used to say that.. but now.. there's nothing left. sorry... :( you won't see this, but..

today no sch, however had cross country, first and last one huh! :)
met 'em at chinese garden interchange and walked to meeting point.
race started by lower sec boys, girls, upper sec boys, girls.
eee. didnt manage to wish 'em goodluck /: lol..
race started. haha! proud of myself because i didn't stop and walk, :)
so rare to see that coming from me, haha. didnt get into top50 :O
sweated like mad. -_- look like one siao charbor when i entered the end point. -_-
aha. stayed back, took pics ^^ hees. met up with the rest at jp for lunch.
then library to slack, and slacked outside mac's and then starbucks. :)
aft that went home and slept like one mother pig. ;x
shall sleep soon AGAIN. ^^ woo~

actually today was supposedly a good day and of course, it's expected
that something ruined my mood. :( sigh.
hate to see that happening. :/ but i cant make you love me when you dont.
i can't take another slow goodbye. :'(

last night, i had a dream. when i woke up, i was hugging my pillow.
but what i really want is that one day i'd dream of my pillow
and wake up hugging you.

when you're gone.

2010-04-07T19:50:00.004+08:00

all the words i need to hear to always get me thru the day,
and make it okay.

no matter what i do, everything's still the same,
its either one step forward and 2 steps back.

tryin' hard not to hear but they talk so loud.

2010-04-05T19:21:00.003+08:00

Someone mentioned your name and asked if I knew you.
I looked down, simply smiled and replied: "Yeah, I used to."

just felt like posting. don't know why either. :/
school was very boring today. in fact everyday's boring... :/
anw. assembly was (Y) today! :) entertaining + (Y) :o
speechday was tiring :/ kept rehearsing the same procedures, but then
i found smth to make myself laugh: SJ's damn serious face LOL.
demo-ed it and idk who kept laughing. -.- hah. aziz called my name once :o
:[ i was indirectly called an idiot during math class. LOL. sad case! HAHA!

oh, i realize my phone's been spoilt for 1 month? or 2? ZZZZZ and i've got
no time to send it this week :( because:
Mon: speechday :(
Tues: YAY very free. But math tuition ... :(
Wed: speechday :(
Thur: LAST PARADE :( :( :( T_T
Fri: Cross-country -____________-
Sat: Tuition(s). :(

life sucks. lol.

hurts to miss someone who doesn't miss you back.

not enough time.

2010-04-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Good Friday 2010! :)

*yawnz* ytd was gd friday, enjoyed it. hah.
movie with family @ jp. clash of teh titans was (Y) :) haha.
kinda bloody, some scenes made me feel scared but i didn't cover my eyes! LOL
which is kinda.. hmm. woah? LOL. i was telling giselle that goodfriday was... because ..
and then she gave that sinister laughter. LOL hahah! ~
w8ed for xt to arrive and met jy at je platform, then off to orchard ^^
walked,shopped(bought nothing LOL),joked arnd, take pics. haha.
pei-ed jy to trim her eyebrows, and took a pic. LOL sadly can't upload. she'll kill me. :(
OH HAHA xueting says i've got nth to trim cos my eyebrow like so little mao LOL
which is quite true, LOL!!!! hahah.
dinnered @ foodrepublic @ 313. hehe their prawn noodles is (Y) go try it!
speaking of that, i dreamt of prawn noodles + pulau ubin + sg + squadmates ytd. =.="
LOL it's kinda scary, but also funny lol!

hah. tuition ltr and i can see it's about to rain~ luckily have shelter hehe! :)
gng back msia in the evening and damn, i've got no time to complete my homeworks liao la!!!!
HOWWWWWWWWWW T.T

i wish i knew.

the only hope.

2010-04-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

this week was sooooooooooooooo good. until some ass spoilt my mood. -_-
nevermind, da ren you da liang! :P hehe. LOL.
anw. many many free periods ley! ^^ all i did was talk, sleep, play, do some work.
HAHA. however homework's piling up and i've gotta like pass it up next week? sian. :(
haha. actually i've got alot to say but idk why im like tongue tied now. LOL.

well we'll speak about today. =) APRIL'S FOOL! :) hehe.
didn't get a chance to trick anyone, OH I DID, JIEYI HAHA. was joan's first victim! :(
rmbred i was her first victim last year too, -.-" LOL :)
FT kinda sucked, tried my best to do as fast as possible, hehe. completed quite early but,
i think i got the wrong points but... nvm.
NP was hai hao la. got to enjoy the aircon for awhile and then drills :)
sir shuhao wans't around o_o and someday you'll realize how it feels to be us.
don't care if you're gna think that we did it for fun. we'll see if you're gna do it for fun
the next time. -.-

tomorrow's good friday, which is really good! =D
however we got reminded that it's gna be our last parade next week, :(
haiz, gna miss 'em. no more gng home tgt, no more falling in as a squad,
no more activities, no more breakfast tgt, no more nothing.
shall save the rest for next week. ~

i hope this time's for real.
can't hang on, it's hurting and im moving on.
i truly hope..

all but one valid reason to hold on.

2010-03-28T01:56:00.003+08:00

on saturday (today) supposedly. lol.
woke up, had ample of time to prepare for tuition (: lol.
reached just on time tho my bus came late ^-^ happy. haha!
aft tuition, went to jp and was by myself for half an hour! ss came & waited for
jieyi! slowwwww! :) kidding la! haha :) walked arnd, bought justin's present &
went to justin's hse before heading to the bbq pit.
didnt really eat alot, instead we were taking photos and walked arnd with jieyi ;)
talked abt 18, and it made me think alot abt the past, again. :'(
sigh. when will it occur again. im still waiting~ x.x haiz.
so anw! cut cake, play ball, eat chicken wings, take pics, emo, etc. :) great day tho!
much fun, haha. had to return home early, so didnt had the chance to see selle.

was reminded of the many homeworks i left incomplete, gotta chiong when i wake up!
i don't wanna go school. go there just to collect homeworks only :(
anw. gna sleep now, supa tired!

It doesn't make sense to let go of something u wanted for so long,
but it also doesn't make sense to hang on when there's nothing there.
damn i regretted. i seriously regretted. if only i was smart enough to tell you back.
(U) then perhaps hols/09 would still be a living dream till today.

you're a living memory.

2010-03-26T23:16:00.003+08:00

It's better that I see through your eyes, all these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know,
When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight...
actually. i don't know how to start all these. so... haha.
the day started out well, bad and fun at the same time, haha! :)
was chatting thruout the national anthem with shuyi and didnt know tbw was listening. -.-
so after that she caught us and we stood up when everyone else was sitting :(
went to the back and hakim allowed us to sit downnnn :P hehe! ^^
geog, didn't have test and we were veh heng lor! :) love the feeling, haha!
rest of the day, is just supa sian.
parade was kinda fun ley! x.x did drills, on the third lvl~
and when we looked down, we saw sec4s/sec5s playing games IN PT KIT -_-
damn jealous can not! then they said girls upskirt, LOL -.-
actually! sec3s also played games la, abit confusing at the start but then, i think
it was kinda fun :) cos they had difficulties winking! ^^ memorable huh!

i may not know it, but these are the moments that i'm gna rmbr most yeah.
how easy is it to act like you don't care, you don't love, you don't cry infront of that somebody?
your face reminds me of everything i miss. and i don't wanna forget your face.
cant cry and smile at the same time. can't love and hate at the same time.

:'(

unprepared for a heartbreak.

2010-03-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

i miss 'em.

forgot to bring geog tb home, which means i can't study for tmrw's test. -_-
fml man! anw. sch was ok today, had ft aft sch & i hope i'll do well! ^^
altho i think my compos always have no link with the question. lol! hah.
was kinda tired in sch tday, and PE was kinda fun, except that it's energy draining.
:( i realize i've been drinking veh little water these few days haha!
and oh, today she landed in sg alr~ actually it's not a bad thing, what i thought at first.
then after dinner smth happened. wah diao, LOL totally speechless man X_X
and she told me she stalked my fb and i was like O.O AH? lol!

anw. ytd was nth la. was really tired too! :( had speechday ytd and it too,
drained my energy -_- stood under the sun for so long and, i think veh fast end leh!
haha! ^^ ytd was erms, actually a bad day.. lol x.x
but i guess it's cleared up today because... yeah. :) im kinda happy too! ^^
esp when someone told me smth. HAHA! made my day okay! :x
small things that make you happy~ :)

AH. i have so many incomplete work to do :(
art is a major pain in my ass, chemistry is a blow to my brain :(
gna go fix & arrange my clothes which has been lying around since idk when (-.-)
and and and polish my boots and arrange badges and and and
try to recall the geography thingy ): dont wanna fail.

i flipped 2 coins, 2 coins showed head, and head meant that _.
so it's fate? joan doesnt me to _. neither do i want to _.
but it's hurting so much.
haiz. i don't know. i'll see how tomorrow. :(

也许我不敢/不想放弃的原因是因为我害怕一望了你，我会后悔。。
很害怕我会很想念你。但现在，我很害怕你会喜欢上别人。
为什么无论我说什么，做什么，你也不会喜欢上我。
:(

也许。

2010-03-24T19:51:00.003+08:00

因为你学会放弃, 而让你更会珍惜每一切，再不会有放弃的念头。
Quoted by Xuexun (:
也许这是我害怕弃的原因。speechday today was super tiring :{ drained my energy, haiz.
stood thr under the sun, sweated, felt like vomiting and had a headache :/
and i know i couldn't stop fidgeting la, LOL :x
hah, waited awhile after changing and went home ^^
oh, got one of my chinese paepr's marks AND i failed. -___-

had chi test tday, and it kinda sucked cos my answers were kinda short x.x
when it used to be very long .__.
and oh, idk how to do vectors! ): ok la, not 100% but there's like 40% idk. :/
sigh. sec4 life sucks. :{

hah. EL FT tomorrow, hope i'll do well for the compo /:
2 more days to Friday! so uberly happy because i can FINALLY rest~
and tomorrow's thursday alr, when i reach home... T_T
i hope all goes well x.x hope nth screws up! :}

haha! ok, that's it. im gna go off alr. still haven't had dinner, lol.
AND shit i realize i forgot to do chemistry! gna chiong now. byebye! :)

everything about you makes life more than perfect,
but everything about you makes life worse than ever too.

tainer's16!:)

2010-03-23T16:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVINTAINER!:)

so today's just like that, another day gone, haha.
the weather in the morning was soooo nice and it made me wanna sleep.
very cold too, haha! tried to sleep during lessons but,
can't. -.-' tsk, irritating don't like! hah.
nth much today, thursday's coming veryyyyy soon. /:
don't know if im supposed to anticipate it, or just....
sigh. :/

1) im abit screwed right now, am i thinking too much, yet again?
i hope what joan said is the reason, and not my thinkings ._.
2) i op t d es t af e o r f i nd i b c s a y.
3) i didn't mean to be bias. i just cldn't help it. i'm sorry.

FYI, its not the same person so yeah~ lol.
oh! gonna sleep now for awhile then head for tuition afterwards! ^^
haha. i wanna talk to you badly. :(

I'm sulking till it hurts me.

jn's!:)

2010-03-21T16:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTDAY JIENING! :)
haha. enjoy your day! smile always. love you!

----
given love received pain. totally not worth it.
you dont mean what you say, and i swear, i really swear.
i'll listen, but i wont take it for real.
because im not gonna let you hurt my teeny weeny heart.
^^

367.

2010-03-20T23:20:00.001+08:00

actually main point is just shareping's teeth, no more braces! /:

ok im just gna admit that i've done shit for these 2 days.
im left with 3 homeworks which are a burden to me, HAIZ!
Art Board 4-6 , Body Worlds Project , Chinese HBL , SS SBQ!
I seriously did try to do those homeworks ok but then... HAHA! ^^
so yesterday i did nth except rotting at home. :(
today i almost rotted to death but i went out to.. get something. haha!
^^ many people's birthdays coming uh! :X hah!
holidays are gna end like in 1 day's time, and T2 is starting, :(
think im gna grow sick soon, feeling v tired now and my body is burning zomfg.
anw, i think i have so much energy for the comp but i've no time to do my hmwks =="
haha, lol.

actually ive got lots to say but idk what to write/where to start when
i came to post here so bye. :/

clt18t12

2010-03-18T12:20:00.002+08:00

Very last activity with squadmates already! :(

tuesday: chem & ss remedial. :) lunched at 7-11 haha! :D
lol, quite boring actually, remedials =/ and, me and SSP is Gulp Girls (GG)
got the name because we brought Gulp to class. :D haha!
went to GV to buy Being Human's tickets, then went home and prepared.
went to meet jieyi at jurongpoint, then waited for awhile haha.
got this stupid uncle, ask me to stand up, so i stood up, cos i thought he
injured his leg or wanna tie shoe laces. in the end he sat down and ate ljs.
kns. =.= tsk! nvm lol. walked arnd, tainer came~ went to meet friends at
buzz over thr, somemore say wanna play hide and seek!!!! LOL.
movie finished, dinnered and home :)

wed: HRC <3 got tricked by jojw early in the morning, walaoeh! hah. :)
boarded bus -> changi jetty -> ubin -> activities -> lunch -> activities -> jwss -> dinner -> home.
exciting + fun day spent with them. also the very last time... lol :(
hais. /: nvm~ at least enjoyed uh! speechday's the official last one. haha. ^^

tday: today's 18! haha. -.-" kk byebye!

lifeless.

2010-03-15T17:01:00.002+08:00

woke up arnd like er, 845 this morning and realized im gna be late for HBL thingy.
LOL, i was very pissed off. because. i went to do math first as there's freakign loads
of questions. at first, they wrote "do all questions in the practise drills." then i do,
do, do, wasted my fucking time on it. after that, refreshed the page and it changed to,
do the "normal" questions only. what the fuck? -.- hah.
and oh yeah, sld i celebrate or what? art only need to do a damned essay and im done with it! :D
chinese, stupid combo or the bao zhang du hou gan, boring shit! eng, passage.
HAHA. oh ya, that reminds me of my maneh maneh holiday assignments! :(

BIO Tys,
Chem poster,
Body Worlds project,
Maths paper 2 TKSS,
~~Art HBL, English HBL~~, Chi HBL,
Art boards 4-6 (!)

omfg. and these week im like so busy.
monday - hbl, tuition.
tues - 2 remedials, tuition.
wed - hrc with squadmates <33 whole day programme.
and 3 other days whereby i have math tuition. wtf?
this is sec4 life, there's like no break. and im tired. T_T

and now, im staring at my student diary, wondering what im gna do next, lol.
oh ya. and my bro is very noisy this morning during HBL!!! shutup. LOL.
ok~ byeeeeeeee! ^^

blahblahblah.

2010-03-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

hi. back from msia with cracked lips, MORE pimples, and headache, again.
lol. didnt really enjoy myself thr. many qns flooded my head, and i still haven't
got the asnwer. lol. last week a torture. a real torture. many homeworks for the
holidays, haven't got started. and there's hbl tmr. gotta wake up early.
*yawns*. oh, can't wait for HRC with squadmates! last activity with them,
will miss them for sure! :(

hah. weekends spent at genting. rather sian la. -_- brought a com which is useless.
bcos the connection thr sucks. like seriously lo! -_-"
ok. idk if there's anything else to post liao. /: srsly dk. haha.

whatever. sometimes i wish that you'll just cut the bullshit(s) and tell me honestly.
dont keep me in the dark because no one likes to feel that way.
yeah someday you'll know the truth but it's supposed to be my secret, not anyone's.
now why wldnt i have the rights to know.
stihsllubesohtemgnivigpots.

HAHA!

2010-03-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

XX, you damn fail ley! =x HAHA.

lol! this totally made my day. esp the first pic de conver HAHA!
he still got say, roll like rice HAHA, rollup roll down. HAHA.
ZOMG I CANT STOP LAUGHING HAHA!

ok today was boring nth much! did art, went crazy!
went worried, sad, HAHA. BUT TODAY WAS GOOD TOO. VERY GOOD
think my clique knows why DAMN HAPPY LA.
~.~ ok bye. gna sleep liaoz, so late alr worhz! ^^
night guys!

PS: xx says he's in a dark room, later must LOL careful ah, this rollup & down on a
cockroach LOL, this time noodles? =X

355 days.

2010-03-08T16:35:00.002+08:00

jieyi's bangs. ^^

kk nth much. went to catch alice in wonderland 3d with jy ytd. ^^
im the 1st to see her bangs! :) muahha, lol, not bad de la. ~
thinking abt cutting my fringe. too long. -_- but it's starting to curl alr.
x.x didn't get scolded for not finishing art but hey! needa passup by weds i think
/: oh god. how to finish laaaaaa! :'( help help help me!!!!!! lol.
been thinking much lately. are you worth the fight. many says you're not,
and i guess you're not worth the fight too.. how i wish, yes,
up till now i'm still holding onto that glimmer of hope...
i guess i've slightly known the truth, i just need confirmation.

back to the start.

2010-03-06T23:23:00.004+08:00

i swear i hate global warming. seriously. everywhere i go even in my house,
the wind that passes by me is like a gust of warm air. my house's like an insulator. wtf.
why must technology be so advanced, creating so many pollutants in the end. ZZ!

anw. shall stop complaining. this week is pretty much boring. /:
all i know is that. im going to fail ss. very badly. sbq qns, i did half for every qns.
how am i suppose to even pass. that's it. ss remedial everyday. thats what she says. lol =/
mounting boards 3&4 extended to this coming monday. yes and i haven't done a shit.
congrats, watch me die man. parade was boring ttm this week. nth much.
abit of parade, more of staying in ava room, watch videos tc of sec3s..
next week, can't even go for cip with sec4s.. haiz.. :(

anw. im involved in speechday parade. hopefully. lol. our last year tgt,
lets make it memorable!! >D of cos with happy memoriez ey.
kids' amaze on fri. very fun! tho it's like the 2nd time.
got injuries on my left elbow, same like the previous kids' amaze trip.
lol it's gonna make my arms ugleh :(

ok i came back to edit my post because everything just fucking disappeared.
yes what a lovely day. -.-

how to move on when there's so much history inside you? is this supposed to be a chance for me to finally clear my doubts and move on? or is this just another routine in every 18ths that i can't get rid of? you're like a shadow and you can't stop following me. i cant get rid of you.

&& i hope i'll start realized that the actually truth is that i'm thinking too much. afterall it's the last year in sch and it's meant to be a happy one ey? play hard, study hard with everyone :) we'll all be happy together. yay. cheers :D.

btw. yangz and rey's in wuhan, china now. tc over thr yo, cuz the weather's cold. ^^
talked to yangz the a few days ago and man, the connection over thr sucks!
woo study hard! :)

goodnight!

paranoid.

2010-03-01T22:56:00.004+08:00

PS: 1st of March! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY 10th TANJOYEN!

yes. i srsly think im very paranoid. but difficult to change la. how =( lol.
i said that cos i was conversing with joan and suddenly she said the word.
made me like, woah think alot. lol! anw. the pic's from cny at joan's house =D
ok so today sch was normal. the weather was alr very freaking hot.
wear tie = 2x global warming heat la! damn. -_- art was wootz cos mr hakim was absent
^^! assembly was the worst. so pathetic la, like they srsly aren't cut out for acting.
and they think their sunwukong moves or whatever moves are oh-so-godly. -.-"
srsly can fall asleep la! and the weather is so hotttttttt until i've to on my aircon AGAIN.
thats because i rarely rarely on my aircon! 2nd time i on when i go to sleep this year ok!

haha basically i decided to post today cos i wanna complain
1. the weather is very hot. make me perspire = lose water.
2. the assembly is very boring.
3. needa complete 2 fucking boards by weds and i completed like 1/4 only >< die. srsly!
4. my coughs not gone yet! still got the phalegm or whatevr -_-
5. steamboat AGAIN and thrs like lesser foods than ytd. double sianz.
6. the weather very hot. off compz alr.

oh. you know something? parents never realize why their kids always talk back to them.
thats because they're like seriously living in the past and not present.
if you think we love answering back then you're so totally wrong la.
why izzit that we have to listen to what you say when you can't even sit down
and listen to what we have to say/explain? all we want is just for you to understand us.
this reduces communication problems right? -.-
whatever. this is smth parents can NEVER accomplish. or at least, take a million years.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. SEEYOU.

dont pretend.

2010-02-27T17:54:00.002+08:00

ha. i think i look very awkward in that pic. taken last night.
look like hunchback plus constipated face! so eew. LOL>
but that's the only grp photo we had, so bobian. shall go search for pics ltr ;)
LOL you know i suddenly can smell giselle now! in my home!
when she's not even around. aw. think i missed her too much! :D kidding.

anw. nth much this week. im left with 3 days to complete 2 mounting boards.
and its highly unlikely that i'll complete it. which means to say im dead. ah wtf!
ok lets see what i've done this week.

mon: singling's bday, shen ri kuai le worz! ^^ eng test.
tues: nth much. eng test.
wed: nth much. haha.
thurs: ms A didn't come, rushed a damn seq! write until hand pain. geog ft, wtf screwed shit! :(
fri: np, was the pc. nervous like hell ley! parade was the most boring one among the other days. so sianz. was released at 5pm, then rushed home, bathed etc and went for the mocking bird. i tell u the show is super sian one ok. jieyi fell asleep. me and sp almost fell alseep. but the best thing is that the aircon is very cold and i wont feel hot. ^^ haha. left the place v late, idiotic. went to mac for dinner/supper then safra with the guys for awhile. cabbed home and slept.
sat: nth much, home all day long~ sianz. goodluck to the girls team! :) ha. heard abt some things and im like wtf. seriously wtf. i feel like strangling someone now. -_-. tmr night, steamboat dinner at aunt's place~~~~~

if you fall, stumble down, i'll pick you up off the ground.
if you lose, faith in you, i'll give you strength to pull thru.
tell me you wont give up, cos i'll be waiting if you fall.
you know, i'll be there for you.....

i'll pay all it takes to know what you're thinking.
because it's starting to mean more and more to me,
day by day.

how to describe this feeling?

2010-02-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is monday again, which means there is freaking art T-T.
dont know how to describe this week, very boring.
have a sore throat, it was only made worse aft the shoutings during np, lol.
right. passed maths ft! :D which i never did in my entire upp sec life x: lol.
sci ft on thurs, please please let me pass! x.x so desperate to pass la. =/
on fri, didnt join 'em for the movies. so so so sorry! they bought an extra tix for me.
=/ ! sorry.

sat, tuition(s) cancelled, so met sp and an and trained to tampines, starbucks-ed
and slacked arnd, waited for bh and jeremy to reach then went to nice's chalet.
had fun over thr, :) eat play laugh, played the playground(s) with an.
haha. sat arnd, chatted. i felt a sense of.. lol. why? :/ !
thank goodness that feeling is gone now, if not it'd be weird. :)
slept at 4+, thanks to nghuien. lol kidding.

ohya. created a tumblr out of boredom. turns to to be quite fun actually! ha.
noticed that my blog post's long /: and my house's kinda noisy tho thr's 2 extra ppl.
lol -.- alrightz, im gng to sleep now. cya guys tmr and tc. :)

I love 18. No more.

2010-02-15T15:22:00.005+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE LUNAR NEW YEAR! &
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! &
Happy belated birthday to BoonHui (13 Feb) &
Happy belated birhtday to Chunpoh (12 Feb) !

Long post ahead, so just scroll down if you wanna see 3 pathetic photos. :D

Super boring week last week, many tests and stuffs. Hope I passed Math FT :/ !
Cant recall any shit, so we'll start with Friday huh! :)

Normal lessons till after recess, TDD! :D Super super high. Love it yo!
Went back to class and made so sculpture thinggeh with my grp. HAHA:D
Kids Amaze with friends, superbly fun luh! And tiring too... x.x
Had bruises on my elbow & leg, and it bled just now. :( HAIZ.
Went back home, bathed packed and went off to Malaysia!!!! <3

Saturday, woke up around 11+ and head that my Dad's couzin passed away. :/
Hope you'll rest well, God will take care of you. :D
Headed over to Vincie's house, played Mahjong w/o money and got my first ANGBAO.
HAHA. Steamboat reunion dinner, very nicee leyyy! :D Played crackers,
Deryk scared the hell outta me lo >:( Went home, played crackers too!
Accompanied little couzins to the funfair, HAHA. Fun :B Was talking to Huien on MSN,
around 2? I think and he told me he's having steamboat. -_- LOL! Talked to Joan somewhere
too! :P Watched 2012, omfg I teared. -.- Ok. Watched fireworks
from 11pm+ to around 2am? CHIO! :( Then went to sleep!

Sunday! Woke up around 11+ AGAIN, spaghetti for lunch. Watched Avatar. xo!
Went over to Vincie's house again, fell asleep on the sofa. :X haha.
Shawn's family came, then more relatives/friends came. YAY $$$$. :x
Ok la not alot of $$ lo! ): BBQ for dinner, very fun! :DDD.
There's this guy who kept following Vincie whever he went,
hugging him from the back, hitting his tummy and gaying. WTF.
Haha made us all rofl :x Played crackers, eat, then back to SG. Sadded. :(

Before I go, shall show you a picture when I was young.......!
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HAHA.

it does make a difference.

2010-02-09T15:05:00.004+08:00

Happy 16th birthday Jiaman! :)
on sun, met up with 2joS and some others to celebrate jm's bday.
haha. ate, play. lol. did some forfeit. HAHA. i slapped cp's face ^^.
lolol. then slacked, walked arnd jp and went to aunt's hse.
went to bake pineapple tarts HAHA. i think abit fail sia,
eat alr very hard. -_-

ytd sch was fine, nth much to elaborate on, haha.
tuition till 8, then accompanied couzzie to have dinner ;O
blahblah, studied bio but not much went in ;l
oh ya, didnt do art too x.x HAH. saw my pri sch friend,
but i dont think she even recognizes me anw. -__-.
OH YA got back ss. hah, passed. wee!~ but. copied 100times of
the meaning of deterrance and some map thingy. w-t-f. -_-

today. nth much tho. altho i think thr's smth wrong with me aft sch. -_-
argh. brought the tarts to sch. heh. nice right!! HAHA, kidding.
had summary & bio test. GG. hope i can pass both haha!

Shareping: *some other words*
Me: HAHA! ok so next time *some words*
SP: seriously la. you play somemore later you dont regret worzx.

Ok. I also think i sld be serious and ask properly next time.
And maybe add a (K), <33 or *winks*! lol.

so many long months have passed. dont you feel anything at all?
its like knowing you so well but eventually becoming estranged.
if i knew it'd turn out this way, i wldnt let it last this long.

history's repeating again.

2010-02-06T11:11:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Rey.(:
-edited post-
hey, hello. been a tiring week, like seriously /:
4 fking tests this week you know. -_- monday had ss.
thurs chinese. fri (ytd) math and geog. i wonder how i did for ss.
miss.a said that if we're 1 mark away from the passing mark, copy the model
essay 10 times. other classes 5 times only :( ok maybe she said wrongly. :X
had np ytd. sir said thr's no np next week (x cny ley! heh. eh,
actually i'm alr in the cny mood. getting ready to eat & take $$ money. cheh! :D
lolol. EH. ytd np was.. okay. lol ._. feeling abit... hmm.. inexplainable la. /:
good and bad. haha. it's always like this. ._.

when i first saw _, i felt so fucking angry. but now? i think im alright alr.
after all, im not anyone to intervene and stuffs so..
shutup, give up, let go, move on, get on with life. ~
everytime after you cry, your wet eyes will become dry again.
:) gambateh!!!!

oh and before i go....
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IM FUCKING TIRED.

i guess i'll be okay...

Moving on.

2010-02-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday! :D

supposed to be doing art/ being busy now, but i seem so free. wtf.
no inpiration for art, dead tired. my life revolves around tuitions and art.
nth special tday. just not in the right mood. fked up life -'-
celebrated jieyi's bday aft sch. went home and got tuition stuffs, then off to library.
sakae, talked, ate had fun. then tuition. hah.
gna be so dead for art. its like i've not even filled up 1/4 of mounting board 2.
fargger. gosh i need stength~
stop stop stop! comparing. :@ yeah its not your fault but it irritates the hell out of me.
i mean like, you don't know how im feeling and you feel like its the end of your world
and stuffs like that. then what about me? #$%^&*()_

I've moving on but I haven't moved on. myeyesfixedonyou.

didnt i mean a thing to you?

2010-01-31T13:22:00.003+08:00

dont know what, dont know when,
but it changed,
and now it's hard not to dwell on the memories.
-by this.

hello! was kind bored so i decided to come post stuffs here. (;
just finished maths tys. >< left with 2 undone qns, idk how to do la. :/
hah. spent 2 days doing that math homework. useless anot? lol.
went to jp ytd night, bought some stuffs, spent a bomb heh. :x
i bought Thirst vol.1 :D nice to read, lolol. AND
i have decided what to wear for the theatre thingy although it's like 22days away.
BUT!! im still very excited la. altho idk it the outfit's gonna be accepted~ LOL.

nyways. dont plan to do art today :x because im lazy. and i havent gathered
much researches yet. just hope i'll have some backup items in the art room
& draw them tomorrow. haha.~

PS: i cant believe im not talking to you just like that.
holy shit i wasted my chance. now it's gone. bye.

cared too much.

2010-01-29T21:09:00.002+08:00

GO LOOK! at the superbly pretty full moon tonight. :)

FINALLY the end of the what seemed so long weekdays! :D
however the weekends seem like an even busier one. hah.
yesterday had english ft and chemistry prac test! ><. argh! hope i did well (x
madness. homework everyday, piling up every now and then, tgt with tuition homeworks.
yeah driving my crazy man! weds had some chinese test too /:
not gna elaborate much on the week because i have stm :X hahs.

oooo parade today. headed to parade with a positive start but.. it didnt continue. lol.
was kinda pissed off but yeah it's over so. let it go. :D hah.
however it was still quite fun with those cadets around AND!
sir shuhao taught us/them a new drill: PT DRILL. superbly funny siahhhh :DD.
did the drill with peishan sj and shafiqa. swear it was uber funny lo.
demo to my squadmates and when i turned aroudn, saw sir shuhao LOLOL
like paiseh lor haha.
right. gonna go dry my hair and have early night already! :D~

- i hope you dont misunderstand my intentions, because i say that to any of my friends.
so yeah. i dont want to be blamed at the end of the day.

&&; i dont like walking past you acting like you're some stranger when i care so much.
why is it so difficult to communicate with you. sigh plus double triple sigh.
i cant act like i dont know you forever...

hatred as a protection.

2010-01-23T15:55:00.002+08:00

thanks to giselle for the photos. :) seoul garden nxt mnth! :D

ytd's siqi's bday, so happy bday :) (22/01/10).
this morning something stupid happened which is really damn dumb.

woke up, saw that the sky's getting brighter, and saw the time, 6:54am
so i was like OMFG GONNA BE LATE FOR SCH SIA. ran to y dad's room,
realized my dad's not in his bed. so i woke my bro up and said EH! he went to work,
never call us go sch ah? so my bro was like huh?
then i was like, OH today's sat. so i went back to my room -.-

unfortunately i cldnt fall asleep. so ate, and did homework, off to tuition.
then home, math tuition -_- tiring anot! haha.
did i mention i gotta pimple somewhere arnd my face? not visible tho.
fucking pain i tell 'ya. ytd, wore the beret and it was almost as good as squashing my pimple.
eff paiN!

oh speaking abt ytd's parade, i kinda enjoyed it. alot :)
with the sec3 squad :D yeah, i think i made them laugh? idk /: funfun ^^.

not really looking forward to sch nowadays, because starting from next wk,
there's like chinese test on weds, FT on thurs. -_- haiz.
apart from all those, still have homeworks ESP MATHS. which always kill my brain cells.
OH SIGHZ. and art which is freaking time consuming but oh well.
it's only for around 10-11months? hah.

and i realized my post is getting kinda long >_< ahh. srsly, i like long posts. :/
getting abit emotional recently. -_- PMS! ZAH LOL
ok not funny. goodurbye! ;)

shut the fuck up. and get the fuck lost, fucking liar. :@ jerk.

your name brings back much memories.

2010-01-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY GISELLE! :)
oh god. she's like 16. ah. long way to go for me! /: lols.
nyways, nth much 'bout this week, just that.. homeworks everyday,
esp maths. art is so time consuming and i've just submitted 1st board.
7 more to go, jiayou!!!! :D
had flu recently, mon/tues cant rmbr. omost gone for today, came back agn.
lol. np and oral learning prog (olp) ?? o.o
PE today, felt abit sick aft running, but felt ok aft sitting down. then JAVELIN
wahaha so fun leh! but as usual mine can't stuck in the ground. WHY -,-
nth much to post, just came to post cos it's selle's bday.
once again, happy birthday! :)

searching so hard in vain.

the 10th 18.

2010-01-18T22:44:00.001+08:00

the 10th 18.

was it smth that i said/did? :/

2010-01-17T17:13:00.002+08:00

HI dears, darlings, friends, acquaintances, strangers, ppl idk ppl reading this blog.
LOL i've some time in my hand now, so shall post about ytd's Sakura outing with 4E4!
haha.
Rushed (not really) to meet 'em aft my tuition ended, lol. took me quite awhile to find it.
But i still found it anw! yay. claps for me.
anw, i think we played more than we ate lor! haha :)
and im feeling hungry now ><" haha.
o_o then went to play, take pics, dance, slack at jp's mac. :D
lol. then went home. close to 12am alr lo! lols. :D

and yeah. did art just now. killed my brain cells. i've become dumb-er. lol jk.
and i think i suck at doing mindmaps because my mindmap looks empty.
lolol! dumb dumb dumb dumb.

sch tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr and then weekends.
lets countdown to the weekends! :D

recap.

2010-01-15T19:48:00.004+08:00

NPCC :D
YESTERDAY was 14 and i like 14, lol! PE ytd was really fun. :D
had fun playing the javelin but, too bad mine didn't get in. -.- not rly obvious la..
and i saw something i dont like, hated, detested whatever.
but im not someone to control your eyes, mouth and whatever you do,
so i sld just STFU! lol

TODAY was so sianz. oh but cca was fun, however, lol!
took charge of sec 3, a new change eh? abit fun la, hah. x.x
been a long time since i actually did some drills huh? well.. hah.
O.O many homeworkz today, many tuitions tomorrow. :'(
urgh! just for 10 months, struggle, struggle and struggle. ~

anw. looked at the photograph infront of me and am suddenly reminded of last year.
yeah, last year. where we are still sec3, taking life easily and not handing in homeworks.
miss every bit of last year. especially the starting and the ending. :)
hah.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY WENDY!

"your face reminds me of everything i miss."

never i guess.

2010-01-13T21:18:00.003+08:00

1. Joan & me after finish flag day :B
2. Eng class. Spot me~! hah.

this week's coming to and end.. and surprisingly im not happy. -__-
have yet to do art mounting board 1 pieces, >< haiz. in need of motivation, lol.
had a chinese test today, last year o lvl paper. oh gosh, LOL.
pray that i'll get at least a b3 for that paper. if not my chinese gonecase sio... lol.
and oh! chuqian im not emoshyt la. T.T i am human showing emotions! lol ok rubbish.
actually i've got nth to post, i just wanna post the pictures up.. LOL
HUNGRY NOW. like always. oh ya, still got tan family worz?! hah, bye~

what are we waiting for when what we want's knocking at our door?

so obvious eh?

2010-01-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

you'd take every chance to avoid me.

went to the gallery to see the O lvl results. saw art and almost died of shock.
omg. damn. gotta work damn fucking hard for O lvls art alr.
received the topics for 2010 art and. W-T-F!? haiz. i can only sigh for the time being. -_-.
anw. received my 2010 handbook and it's so freaking chio la!
compared to the previous years where you had one big eagle head
and its so fucking ugly that you're scared to show it to other ppl -.-
alamak. thats how exaggerating it is. :X lolol.

hectic day for me, and 15 math questions is lying on my desk now, waiting for me to touch it.
omg. 1st mounting board by next weds!!!!! HELP ME. T.........T

you dont know one small move of yours cause a great impact on me.
you dont know, you dont know, you dont know....

18th's coming.

2010-01-10T13:21:00.004+08:00

on the last night of 2009, also the very last day we'll be talking like how we used to talk...
on 2010, the 9th of jan, is also the very last time i'm ever gonna text you..
sigh. i dont want to forget you..
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:/ mixed emotions, mixed feelings. every single minute, every single second....... :'(
haiz. what happened in the holidays was just an illusion of me, you, everything.
:'(

nvm. ytd had 2 freaking tiring activities in a row! oh god ><" CCA open house was tiring, because had to stand.. and ad for npcc. ;) kinda fun actually. well at some parts.. hah.. got free milo leh! first time ever in JWSS this happened right, lol? idk. hah. anw. blahblah. packed up, then headed for flag day. which is even more tiring because i've to walk for like 3.5 hours and ask for donations. hah. kinda enjoyed it though. returned to sch, returned the tin and.. yeah. whatever. gonna continue on my art.. byeee.

im gonna remember what happened on the last few days of 2009 forever.
im gonna remember the stupid excuses you used to prevent me from knowing the truth.
im gonna remmeber what happened during holidays, because they were so beautiful.
it's so beautiful it makes me wanna cry......

every bit of memories.

2010-01-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

First week of school was kinda horrible for me..
Not really lots of homeworks, lots of periods being cut down.
And finally, 50 sketches and O level themes out next Monday.
Not really much to elaborate on school, it's always the same things happening,
Usual practices and.. yeah. Seeing people who you don't wanna see and
Hearing myself cry over stupid matters. Part and parcels of life, I guess?
I shouldn't have taken you for granted if that's the reason,
But I can't control your feelings.

Don't cry, because it only makes you weaker.

Must be thinking it's some emoshit post coming from me huh?
Well you can ignore it anyway...

i could only watch you from a distance...

2010-01-04T17:08:00.001+08:00

1st day of school was totally boring ._."
well. got to know all our tchers from the timetable.
hai hao la. just feel so ... to know/confirm that tbw is my bio tcher -_-
argh! nvm. jiayou!
and mr hakim wants the 50 sketches tmr and i did half only. -.-"
omfg. now chiong also no use... :/

sitting at the gallery = cramped and ass-breaking. lol. hah.
well... all the tchers do is talk and talk abt O levels and i feel so pressurized
and tensed up. damnit.
:@

argh! juliene said smth to me today and..
i regret. T_T even she say that _ say i SURELY WILL REGRET.
argh how ho how!? :'(
dilemma. :/

already immuned.

2010-01-03T17:41:00.004+08:00

Last day of holidays T.T
hope i'll get used to school days and studying hours & homeworks /:
that's because i've been slacking for 2 whole months. -.- wasted.
and i finished my homeworks! :D well it only applies to maths with a few blanks.. /:
as for art.... *speechless* did half. we'll see what hakim has to say. ._.

Anw. went to have a haircut just now. hair & fringe looks shorter now..
was kinda grumpy when i cut it but after awhile... WELLL hair will grow right!!!!!!
saw sp just now too. AND she cut her hair. again. LOL.
and selle rebonded her hair, very smooth leh! jealous >< my hair is dry. -_- shall hunt for new shampoo soon~ lolz.
idk what's happening, this is happening too frequently alr.not like the past anm but i'll get used to it & hopefully...i'll let you go.. ._.

a new beginning.

2010-01-01T14:59:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR;
happy 2010 ^^; hope it's a smooth journey ahead. :]

{much edits :/

Countdown '10 yesterday @ Vivo with sp, vin, aloy, jm, cp, bh.
It's the first time we queued up to go on the escalator.
Lol, smth made me laugh like crazy but, I feel bad about it, so sorry. :X lol.
&
I think I kept asking Aloy whether he's sure Vivo has fireworks, and he assured me have.
LOL then after that, when it was 12, coutndown & got ready to snap pics of fireworks.
Guess what we saw? Instead of seeing 烟花 we saw 一点烟花，很多烟。 LOL!!

OH YEAH i knocked my head like 3 times!?!?! & sp says some become smarter after they knock their head. LOL.
Because we arrived at BL late, so no bus service. :/
There were some passengers stuck inside the interchange, and it was hilarious. HAHA.

Anw, next time if you can't find me in a crowd, find someone with x'mas lightings on her body. Lol. :)
Sp? You'll find her if you can spot someone with a star on her head. :)
Dont understand? Go her facebook pics. Lol. ;D

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DETERMINATION.
when there's a will, there's a way. keep the faith.
STAY POSITIVE!

if you'd give me one more minute.

2009-12-31T00:22:00.004+08:00

31st December 2009! Last day of 2009 ;)

Hehe, opened my blog on the last day of 2009, which is very special? LOL JK.
Anw, New Year's tomorrow, and countdown's tonight. :)
Let's just some up this year in a few words? LOL.

Definitely 2009's a great good x1000 year, except with some ups and downs? :)
It's good to meet new friends, have new friends and,
I'm glad I've met my friends. YAY. Haha! Lol. Ya ya I know I sound lame right.
But nevermind~ this a season to be jolly la la la la la~ la la la la! :D
Of cos there're unhappy things that happened like eg: almost misunderstandings
and some regrets about certain stuffs but..
I hope I'll get over it :)
And all memories shall be kept in the heart and mind. :D

Anw, shall talk about what happened the past few days. Haha.
Was kinda upset over some stuffs recently.. But I'm fine now I guess.
Talked abt it to a few friends and... Thanks for cheering me up. Love you guys X:
Haha.

25 dec; Merry Christmas! :D Watched Alvin and the chipmunks, then went over to Xt's house. Played some games. And eew I lost 4 times, need drink those mixed drinks + sauces 4 times. Yuck. But didn't really taste until the sauces so not so bad la :D Played truth or dare thereafter, was kinda fun :D Hahah! Went to Vivo for dinner, walked arnd, then went to Selle's house. At first we play the stacking thing, then we went on to play cards and... Gambled? ._. LOL. Cabbed home afterwards. ;)

26-27 Dec idk what I'm doing. Forgot. -.-"

28-30 Dec Went back to sch for Open House Prep, was really fun with those people around :) Especially Shengjie who kept using Chinese Proverbs which I dont even understand. And Chuqian's learning, and I'm laughing. LOL. AHah. Tw joined in on 30th, and was really fun with him arnd too. :) Cheers people, miss you guys and hope to see you soon! :D And I do miss those peeps in Campcraft too. :( Seeya guys soon! Muackz. XD LOL. -.-"

Alright. Done with this super lengthy post here and,
Enjoy the photos up ahead! Spend the last day of 2009 wisely!
<3

And yes I do regret but it's all too late now. Everyone's telling me to take things as it come, dont think too much and all sorts of stuffs. I appreciate it but I guess it's all up to me now. It's whether I get over this... Altho I seem like I can't. It's kinda difficult for me.. But... It's worth the try? :/ Jiayou Cheryl! :)

the truth.

2009-12-23T22:55:00.005+08:00

Advanced Bday.

15th dec.
celebrated advanced bday with sp, 2xjo, xt & jy.
thanks yo :) ecp for that day. my back got 2 colours liao! ugly ):
haha. rained right after we left ecp. lol! so cool haha.
can't remember much x.x quite long liao. -_-
:X anw thanks guys. lurf chiu (K). haha.

Beijing trip.

17th dec
singapore -> beijing aiport -> hotel -> forbidden city -> tian an men square.
-> cultural show -> hotel -> sleep.
checked in some hot spring resort. act hero with my bro, went out in the cold with my bro. LOL froze /: the cultural show, watch until sleep. -_- stupid ass. lol!

18th dec - happy bday weiting.
jade carving factory -> great wall -> skiing -> taste tea -> new hotel
great wall, die there la. -_- wind blow, and i almost fell down. eew. super cold :S
skiing was super fun! :D fell down 2 times. so paiseh and funny lol!
and hor, i saw a car on fire. so cool! omg. :D

19th dec
country side trishaw ride -> medicine hall -> heavenly temple -> museum -> shopping -> opera shit -> hotel.
cold weather, lips cracked, pain. cheeks also pain, LOL! haha. you know opera very the sian lor! but was kinda talking and eating all the way with my family and the whoever, lol! fun :D

20th dec
zoo -> pearl shop -> summer palace -> bird nest/water cube -> foot massage -> kungfu show -> hotel.
panda's greatest wish: take a picture of itself with colours, LOL.
panda's greatest regret: cat or bear? LOL.
bird nest & water cube is spectacular! kungfu show was awesome yo! <3>21th dec
forgot -> tianjin museum by bus -> some street -> lunch -> beijing by bullet train -> forgot.
ok forgot what happened BUT i remember seeing a burnt truck lol! so cool. hahaha.

22nd dec
temple place -> china bird egg -> buffet lunch -> shopping -> airport
and the china bird egg is the, smth like musuem? O: nice nice, but the name is funny. rofl!
buffet lunch is good yo. abit short. shopping, LOL. shopped arnd with this girl,
then, we go try bargain, LOL and we ran away because the sales lady too fierce -_-
rofl. actually we're taking a later flight, so supposed to go airport at 8+,
but we followed the grp cos nth to do, so we went off ;)

23rd dec
reach sg. missed everyone! :D

anw. on the phone now with beans, ha. previously talked to 246~ because we went same place.
lol! ahhaa. and you suck for forgetting what 16dec was! :@ haha.

OH BTW i realize i'm very gullible and i believe ppl easily :@
that tiem weilun bluff me so many times i believe,
this time in china, aunty pris bluff me i also believe.
wth! i should stop being so dumb lor!
:(

beginning to realise what it was all about, not fit to be in that spot,
that place. everyone should know their stand, and that includes me.

fifteen.

2009-12-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

Fabian showed me this vid a few days ago, so i guess i'll post it up.
nights yo.

art sucks x1000 x1000

2009-12-11T01:19:00.001+08:00

DAMN.

im tired of my current blogskin LOL -__-

very the fast worhz i know. gonna continue hunting good biie! :D

but everything is so different now.

2009-12-06T15:33:00.003+08:00

FINALLY able to to blog about class outing which happened 2 days ago lol!
Ok actually it isn't that long la ><"
Sentosa for class outing, haha. Kinda scared of Afif, Wendy and Yijing lol.
Wendy and Yijng chased the un-wet girls around to drag them into the water,
while Afif splashed water to make them wet. Me? I got wet MYSELF. :D
Pro bah, kidding lol. Actually is I keep running away -__-
Went to Vivo and have lunch tea-break or whatever, then went to Skypark,
Take photos and stuffs :) Talked at Sarbucks, then went home alr.
Altho class outing was 2 days ago, and I saw last my classmates 2 days ago,
I kinda miss them alr .__." lol.

Anw, went back for Campcraft selection yesterday.
Superbly early sio! Did some pitching, then break, then results came out.
Got selected, Idk whether to be happy or not...
Will be involved and busy with NP next year, wonder how I'm gonna cope...
3 months, others will be studying, preparing.. While I'm in Campcraft...
Sigh. Nvm.. Parts and parcels of life, it'll come soon, and it'll end soon..
Jiayou!

Things I once believed in have now filled me up with doubt...

maybe the words would come out right this time.

2009-12-02T16:07:00.003+08:00

I think I didn't update for quite a few days eh? o_o.
Lol. Anw. Went to Wild Wild Wet with squadmates yesterday ^^.
Went over there, changed and faster chiong to the pool lol!
Fun fun fun! :D Altho I had a few bruises here and there, but, still fun la.
None of us applied sunblock, and we're all burnt. Haha.
I think I played all the rides, except the 'U' ride, ok Idk how to explain that.

And you know! I was playing the bicycle ride, you know cycle on air? Or smth liddat.
So me and Ju was cycling, lol. I was looking at her, then ...

Cheryl: *talk talk talk*
Juliene: *talktalktalk*
Cheryl: *talk* *looks infront* and say, *AH GOT BIRD!* *screams*

LOL Ppl from below were like looking up. And Ju cant stop laughing. Baichi :@
Anw me and Ju was kinda scared riding that ride lol. She kept saying, dont look down!,
Omg faster cycle!, Cheryl dont cycle so fast leh!

LOL. We're all tired, so we went to take a bath and...
The boys showered slower than us lor. Wth! LOL :x Ok just kidding abt the 'wth'.
Trained back to JP, and you know, 7 of us occupied 1 row in the train,
AND ALL OF US WERE SLEEPING LOL.
Dinnered with them, then went home~ Haha.

And yeah, Huien's in HK alr. Take care over there!
And there's class outing on Friday. Pray that I wldn't get burnt~! :D

I wont let he/she/you/her/him/them/their words affect me, not anymore.
Sensitivity, is it good or bad?

sinking like a weight.

2009-11-27T23:09:00.005+08:00

Hello! Yay I finally got out of my house today! :D LOL.
Actually wasn't going out, but last minute, lol. SP wanted to go Expo, so we went~!
At first, she told me meet in 30mins time, but I havent bath LOL. So she said,
"Give you 1 hour then." LOL. I made it. Ok, crap. This para is crap LOL -_-

Ok. Been so long since I met her, updated her quite alot ^^ lol. Ok back to main point.
Freaking squeezy over there. -.- Went up to a lvl 2 to realize it's a dead end. LOL
Smart us took lift. Haha. Dumb people use escalator X:~
Blahblah, went to look at phones, then wanted to go find food. But in the end,
Went to Changi Airport, LOL. -_-
Searching for Macs, but settled down at some Kopitiam instead~! Haha.
Lala. Walked awhiled, chat awhile. Went to this supa nice place! haha. Took photos.
And went back.
YOU KNOW. SHE SAT DOWN AND SLEPT TILL SO SHIOK.
AND I WAS STANDING THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE TRIP -_________-!
Haha. Stood all the way back home too :/ Tired.
Kkkkkk I'm going to prepare to watch tv liao ok. Bye. ^^

PS: Huien wants to post about him, so. I post liao ok? Bye.

Oh ya I just realized today that 1st Dec is on Tues, not Mon! LOL.
And Class outing's on Fri not Thurs, LOL. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ HAHAHA.

OK BYE.

oblige.

2009-11-26T16:12:00.002+08:00

I effing hate people who drill the ground, or whatever construction work so early in the morning.
LOL. Acutally my early in the morning refers to 11am. :@
Super angry la like wth. Was enjoying my sleep and they drilled the ground or whatever.
Walaoh. Wth is their problem man.
LOL. Huien say's he's gonna burn that person's house -.-"
And I told him he doesn't even know where that worker lives, and he said makes sense.
-.-" Huien's sucha baichi! LOL. Hhaa.

Was kinda anxious this morning cos my Bro's getting back his PSLE results.
Altho my mood's kinda ruined by those workers. But anw!
Idk how to describe his results. -.- Zzz.

Oh and Jolene's coming back today! Hi welcome back~ Lala Haha.
Watched Gossip Girl in the afternoon AND they started drilling again.
LOL despite the noise i carried on watching anw. :/
Altho i cldn't hear a single thing. -.-........ Ya la dumb right. Haha.

Ok. I guess i've got nothing to blog about, so goodbye! :D
Hope I'm able to make it on Monday. Wish me luck! :/

Oh ya, remember that day I went out with Joan they all? LOL.
Here's the neoprint. -_-.
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LOL

and everytime it cuts me deeper.

2009-11-25T01:05:00.004+08:00

I really hate hate hate holidays... :( There's seriously nothing to do. T_T...
Holidays = Do art, art art art art art x50........ =_= walaoz..
Anw I think I got dark circles from sleeping late. Omg. -.-

Went out ytd with Joan Vin Huien Yuzhe Nas, went to Safra.
LOL. Wanted to play @ the children's area or smth. But wth. Cost 16bucks.
-_______________- But it really looks fun leh. )= lol.
Walked back to JP arcade, play lorz. Went to took neoprint LOLZ!
Hahah -__- Mostly is me and Joan appearing -_- Guys were forced to take LOL.
Will scan the picture into my comp soon. Kinda lazy right now :/
Went home, waited for Dad and went to Msia for dinner.

Huien was like, huh? Dinner? Wah so fast come back ah?
Blahblahblah, dinner there ah? Aiyo if I were you I will over night leh.
Then I replied, also not wedding dinner. Is normal dinner only what.
He said: Huh? Wedding dinner? Wedding dinner so fast end one meh?

OMG no wonder he wear specs. Still what God OF Birds -_-
LOL whr got birds wear specs one siah! Haha.
And speaking of birdz, I have a BK leh! (Bird Kingdom) :DDDDDDD
LOL -_- rofl. So funneh worhzxxzx.

As you can see I'm so supa bored right now so I'm trying to make my post longer.

-thinking of what to post in progress-

OH YA!!!
I'm not going anywhere today...... =(staying home again. T_T
And play storty AGAIN. And do art AGAIN. And sleep and eat AGAIN.
lol -_________-

Oh ya hor. Alvin you want your name in your post right? k lo.
ALVIN SUX :D hehe. LOL

crazier, crazier.

2009-11-21T14:20:00.004+08:00

Haha, SC's a funny guy over there! :D
And btw, I didn't laugh very loudly in the video hor! Is they all laugh deh~ lol.
Andandand, it's uploaded in facebook. Thought I'll put it here too. lol.

Yay! Finally changed my blogskin. -_- just pray I wldn't get sick of it so soon. ._.
Anw. I'm finished with 15 sketches for Art ^_^
I know very slow la, LOL. Nov ending only 15 sketches, slow ):
For the remaining 35 sketches, idk what to draw. -_-
Shit shit shit. All flowers meh? = die leh! lol.

Haha, next Wednesday, sqaud outing to Escape Theme Park! :DDDDD
Can't wait for it, so long since i've been there & seen my friends ^^v.
Hohoho, and then Dec4 would be Class outing!!!!!!!! Even more excited.
I mizz maii krassmates! )): woo~~ LOL. Sound as if I'm high on drugs -_-
AHhaha! Ran out of things to blog, so Huien told me to blog about the bug.
Was in my Dad's room ytd watching tv, then there's this freaking bug which
cam and fly around me and I screamed and ran out of my dad's room, lol!
Then i went to the living room, and it followed me there -_-
W-t-f. Used a glass container to capture it, and it's still thr until now.
Hope it dies so I can throw it away. -__________-

Sleep + eat + going out + doing Art + watching tv + texting + country story
= TO BOREDOM. HOLIDAYS. STUPID. BORING. SUCKY. :(

I guess my post's long enough alr, lol -_-
Goodbye! :D

Idon'tknowwhat'shappening,butcheerup,:)everything'sgonnabealright.

life's a game but it's not fair, i break the rules so i dont care.

2009-11-18T22:43:00.004+08:00

(copy and paste from my onsugarr.)

CLOSETO18, 8th.
it's 18 again, lol. yet another month passed by.

anw. went for steamboat with fr's at vivo ytd. was fun! :)
haha. we separated into 2 'teams', mine was with ju vin aloy. jere, sc, vis in another team.
hahah. lol. we ate alot la like srsly. 7 of us ate 18 mango puddings -_-"
that's alot! you know, my team's soup is very clean leh, but jere's team de soup,
dont know how many freaking eggs they added inside -.- >10!?!?!? LOL!
then alvin played with some of them a game, lose must eat a fruit mixed with tomyum -.-
LOL disgusting la! hhaha.
went to arcade aft that, LOL saw gurmit singh(?) with his son.
and i kept staring at them lolol! as in, not dont like them de stare, curious de stare -.-" LOL.
and they say im a stalker )))): haha.
lol~ walked arnd, went to toys r us to play, LOL kept throwing balls at each other.
aloy and i scared ourselves. stupid -_-
sorta got scolded by the staff over there. went off and headed home.~
ytd = fun!
never been so happy in sucha long time haha.
today, went back to sch for np for housekeeping.
suprisingly it aint tiring, maybe bcos i sat down and do those things. lol.
boringgg~~~ haha went for dinner with squadmates and home-d.
going to escape with them next wed, hopefully wont cancel again LOL.
oooo, i saw my friends today~ hah~ kinda missed them all. i miss 3e4 )):
lol. ok thats all i've got to say. bye.

if you'd ever experience what im feeling, then probably you'll know.
know how it feels like to be left out. of everything.

feel it comin' in the air,

2009-11-17T02:38:00.004+08:00

HOLIDAYS SUCKS TO THE MAX.
:( walao. art art and art. what's worse than being stuck at home doing art.
w-t-f. :'( hahaha~ lolz. headache laaaaa.
it sucks when your phone rings and esp when it's on silent mode with vibration.
noisy and irritating LOL
ok goodbye. holidays sucks! T_____T
however i hope this holiday wont end lol!
just now, i spoke to this woman whoever she is LOL.
she suddenly talked to me abt o lvls and im totally freaked out -.-
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
oh and i went to IMM just now~ starhub to repair my stupid modem.
and i saw xueting! :D hahaha! so qiao lehh~ talked to herr lalalala.
ok la byebye.

you thought.

sinlking onto the face of the oceans.

2009-11-12T13:13:00.004+08:00

just some pictures from xt's bday.

btw, drinking 100 plus in the morning will make your tummy pain ah?! :O
lol. these few days, just slacking at home. and doing art T_T
monday, went back to sch. fun course. and made me dizzy too.
lol, went i sat down on the chair at the com lab, theres one missing 'leg'
from the chair, and i almost fell down. stupid. LOL! ok i find it funny. :/
~.~ dinnered with squadmates, then went home and sleep. like 8pm i sleep le!!!
woahhhhhhh! -_- ok.
tues, went to collect my phone<3>

wed, -_- stayed home to do art. in the end, draw 5 shade 1. WLAAO.

today, draw 5, none shaded. im slow i know :(

and i was so pissed ytd. bcos i still cant dl gossip girl season 2.

wth. and i need a new skin. this skin is making my blog look ugly. :X LOL.

ok, off to find new skins! :D ohhh, and i wanna go watch 2012! hahah~

'x3'

2009-11-08T16:51:00.001+08:00

walao. 1 week has passed liao... :(
i've done nth except watch movie, math hwk and sleeping T_T
i promised to get started on art this tuesday.
but shit! no motivation ah. :(
finally im gng back to sch tmr.
i miss sch -.-
yadada bye.~

2009-11-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

OMG.
i seriously want to change my blogskin. -.- looks fugly.
and boring too. haha -_____-
*burps*! hahah~ lol.

ok bye.

:D!

2009-11-03T22:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 15TH, XUETINGGG! :D
hope you enjoyed yourself today(:
post the pics maybe tmr, kinda tired right now + no photos x; hah.
tc everyone!

-2days.

P.S

2009-11-02T20:31:00.003+08:00

last day of sch, still.

holidays start = siandom/boredom. T____T
ever since hols started i've been staying home watching movies/shows.
no life. excpet for the one day whr i did my math homework.
sianary. :( lol. a few more hours until...........! haha you know? :D haha.
lol. and i seriously want to finish art asap but im lazy to do research!
nature? what's naturally produced? air???? T_T
sianary x2. i need entertainment.~ whr are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

i can tolerate your moodswings. but there's a limit. if you think that there's something in the world that you can only OWN or SAY or DO, then i'll tell you that you are SO TOTALLY WRONG.

PS: you wouldn't want to know how important you are.

in replacement of your misery.

2009-10-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

Ya I know we'll still be seeing each other next year but I miss my class la. -.- LOL. 2 months can't hear their voice :O It's gonna feel very weird, lols. Haha. PTM just now. Talk rubbish only lor. Slack here there everywhere. Haha. Went home. :O Haha. ~.~ Have to start drawing 50 sketches of Art very soon. It sucks it sucks! T_T Lol.... Holidays sucks.. Alright! Blog another day~ Altho Idk when. :X

I know you treat me as your good friend and nothing more than that. I can't seem to let you go, and I don't want to let you go. I don't know why too..... ))))): Sigh.

too afraid to move on.

2009-10-27T21:11:00.003+08:00

L.O.L
sorry it's abit too late to post the picture, i'm just lazy anw. :D haha.
anw, last 3 days of school including tmrw!~ will miss everyone luhs! (x haha.
erm anddddddd. I HOPE TOMORROW MR HAKIM NEVER COME :/
i srsly find art so ........................................ fill in the blanks yourself. haha.

someone like you.

it's not getitng anywhere.

2009-10-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday~ haha :D

haunted house preps over, yipeeee. i guess it's a success? :) haha :D. got back all the results alr. it's kinda okay for me i guess. altho some are kinda disappionting. sldnt have pinned high hopes anw.. class is getting more slackier <3 love it hehe. lol. had a talk with huiyi in class, i think its kinda nice ~.~ lol. last week of sch nxt wk, i wish time flies nxt week man :/ dk why too. 11.02pm now~ gonna sleep. nightzzzzzzzzzz :D

so im already gone.

Countless times

2009-10-10T13:53:00.001+08:00

Hi guys! Do well in your exams uh! :)

Good luck and all the best! :D byebye!

happy birthdayyyyyyy jolene <3

2009-09-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SNAILEY-NUER! :D x3

STAY HAPPY ALWAYZ!!

Happy bdayyyy.

2009-09-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Alan Yap!

C: Im going to meet Ju, then go fnd Alan they all, shun bian "celebrate his bday"~ lol.
A: Haha :) Where you all celebrating at?
C: Going to the gym to find them, lol. Alan's gonna lose weight there, on his birthday!
A: Hope you'll know that it is most probably gonna be a failure.
C: Hahahah! You so bad sia.
A: See, just call him wait till NS. He's gonna faill till then.

Then I told Juliene,
C: I bet he'll never lost weight.
J: Yeah, but at least he lost abit of weight what! See he sec1 so fat sia.
C: Ya, he from Sec1 till now lose weight, still fail.

LOL! HAHAHAH. Sorry if it's a cold joke LOL.
Ya thats all I wanna say actually :X

fading.

2009-09-19T23:09:00.004+08:00

fadefadefade.

long weekend and it rock! i like itttttt. and yeah i lerf the homework too lol. ah. oh yeah, and in case i forgot to say, happy advanced hari raya aidilfitri uh! ;D which is tmr? i think? hahaha. ps if i got it wrong :/ also, it's xiangan and michelle's bday today! so happy bday to you, enjoyy ;)

something's bothering me, yet idk who to confide it. been asking myself this: isit worth losing a friend over a small matter, which is being petty? or not understanding enough? this question still lingers around my head.

Like shock that spun me around.

2009-09-18T21:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
Had to write a freaking 500 word essay because never finish geog hols assignment.
Watched Ice Age 3 at ava room and it was freezing inside.
Water bashed alanyap and he's soaked from head to toe.
(he wants more on his bday :o)
Kept making the snoring sound with Shashi.
Boring lessons, maneh maneh homework.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Idk what to blog alr. :( ok la bye.